been feeling rather upset the past couple of days...think it has something to do with the visit to the Chinese physician and of cos the book "the Shack".
The visit to the physician was to treat my left leg as it has been numb since the last 2 months of my pregnancy. i think the blood has not been circulating well as my weight has been pressing on the hip. somehow, we revealed that Tyan was gone and I was on a diet and immediately the two lady physicians told me that i must not go on diet cos it will mess up my body system, got to eat all the warm stuff, avoid cold drinks, salads, strawberries and kiwi cos they are considered cold food and is bad for body recovering from pregnancy. and they told me to wait and recuperate and build up my body before i try again...but does anyone understand how hard it is to WAIT???
basically felt demoralised after that cos it seemed like no matter what i did, it seemed wrong...when all i was trying to do was for the objective that i could have a smoother pregnancy the next time. Sigh....had been worried abt the diet program that i'm doing now cos i found that it was very similar to the HCG diet but they told me that it was not but rather the tincture was made from herbs and amino acid. Still anxious but since the owner is a believer, got to give her the benefit of my doubt. But have been worried all these while that this tincture was going to mess up my system. I want to lose the weight but not at the compromise of my health and definitely not my future pregnancies!
This week i finally finished the book - The Shack that Serena gave me. It has really been a blessing to me. while it may not be the exact same situation as me but reading the questions and anguish faced by the main character helped expressed some of the emotions that i did not know how to address. Reading the book brought to surface many of the feelings that I hid inside me...cos sometimes, there are just emotions what you have no idea how to express it or share it unless the other person has been through similar situaltions. If you are a Christian parent that have faced a loss of a child or a dear one and you are wondering how to face God after all these, have a read at this book. I'm sure it will help answer some questions and take your perception of God to a different paradigm.
The visit to the physician was to treat my left leg as it has been numb since the last 2 months of my pregnancy. i think the blood has not been circulating well as my weight has been pressing on the hip. somehow, we revealed that Tyan was gone and I was on a diet and immediately the two lady physicians told me that i must not go on diet cos it will mess up my body system, got to eat all the warm stuff, avoid cold drinks, salads, strawberries and kiwi cos they are considered cold food and is bad for body recovering from pregnancy. and they told me to wait and recuperate and build up my body before i try again...but does anyone understand how hard it is to WAIT???
basically felt demoralised after that cos it seemed like no matter what i did, it seemed wrong...when all i was trying to do was for the objective that i could have a smoother pregnancy the next time. Sigh....had been worried abt the diet program that i'm doing now cos i found that it was very similar to the HCG diet but they told me that it was not but rather the tincture was made from herbs and amino acid. Still anxious but since the owner is a believer, got to give her the benefit of my doubt. But have been worried all these while that this tincture was going to mess up my system. I want to lose the weight but not at the compromise of my health and definitely not my future pregnancies!
This week i finally finished the book - The Shack that Serena gave me. It has really been a blessing to me. while it may not be the exact same situation as me but reading the questions and anguish faced by the main character helped expressed some of the emotions that i did not know how to address. Reading the book brought to surface many of the feelings that I hid inside me...cos sometimes, there are just emotions what you have no idea how to express it or share it unless the other person has been through similar situaltions. If you are a Christian parent that have faced a loss of a child or a dear one and you are wondering how to face God after all these, have a read at this book. I'm sure it will help answer some questions and take your perception of God to a different paradigm.
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